It was not such a wonderful weekend. I was able to take W to see Wall-E in the theatre on Saturday and after that I was pretty much useless. The end started on Sunday but I think the hormone drop began the day before. I am still working my way through things physically but emotionally I am doing much, much better.
I knew this needed to end before I could process. The way this moment is going really forces you to deal with the finality of things every hour. Yes, body, I get it, you are letting it go.
I go to the clinic tomorrow morning to begin the “beta drop watch”. I have no idea if I will need to wait another cycle or if I can try again with my next cycle day one. You know I will be asking tomorrow.
I really, really want to jump right back in.