Sorry for keeping you hanging. I got the call a few hours ago and have just been hunkered down trying to keep W from climbing the walls.

The beta was 14.

The nurse said I could come back tomorrow or come back thursday for a repeat. She also said I should continue with progesterone and estrace. I will be doing none of the above. You might know of a person who had a friend that read in a magazine about a lady that knew someone who had a beta in the teens that went on to have a viable and amazing pregnancy and take home baby – but I don’t want to hear about it. Not trying to be snappy – I just know a beta of 14 is not going anywhere where I want it to go.

I’ll be stopping my meds and waiting for the inevitable. It fucking sucks and I feel ridiculous for being as hopeful as I was.

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