Not pregnant

Early On-set Optimism

by on June 26, 2006

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I do believe that this is a new record. Just last night I was bitching to myself about having to go out & buy another damn box of tampons. (I will spare you details – but let’s just say that there is an entirely NEW side effect once one stops taking progesterone. It’s like period-pa-looza!) [...]

in case you were wondering…

by on June 23, 2006

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Because I couldn’t wait…

by on June 19, 2006

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I tested this morning. So instead of saying it was negative I will say that it did not yet indicate a positive. I’m a bit early on the testing at just ten days past ovulation. But I did one of those dumb early morning negotiations: If my temperature was above 98.4 then I would test. [...]

grover is blue too

by on April 24, 2006

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grover Originally uploaded by Calliope1. So I am still down in the doldrums, can’t put myself in a “happy place” to save my life. Whatever. You know sometimes you just have to feel it and live it to get through it. Shit. I sound like a running shoe commercial. But that makes sense, right? Forcing [...]

not that I wasted a digital or anything…

by on April 2, 2006

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I actually didn’t need to test. If you catch my drift. Nothing like the OBVIOUS sign that you are not pregnant to start your day. And good morning to you, tampons. To be honest I am not surprised. Nothing quite felt right about this cycle. I had swings of optimism, but all the family stress [...]

Boomerang of Denial

by on February 13, 2006

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This weekend was a full one. Alert the media: I was social! But it didn’t start off on such a great note. Saturday morning I woke up around 4am, and for whatever reason, I tasted metal in my mouth. It was if I had slept all night sucking on a penny. So even though I [...]

A New Day

by on February 9, 2006

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Thank you all for your words of support and hope. I was able to tune out reality and live in denial until about eight last night. Then I was hit with a brick of overwhelming sadness. I went outside, walked down to the lake by my house, and sobbed. I tried to speak to God, [...]

Possible Golden Girls Situation

by on February 8, 2006

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Well, first things first: I am not knocked up. I’m in a bit of denial about that at the moment so I will breeze on to the next order of business. Mom got a “possible” job offer…in Florida. I say possible because she hasn’t met with the company just yet. But since the world of [...]

Turning a New Leif

by on January 18, 2006

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First of all – I can not stop chuckling over how many of you guys e-mailed me the shocking news about Big Daddy. We can officially relax as I am truly out this cycle. Can’t say I am surprised, but there is that initial moment of, “Fucking, shit, damn, not another failed fucking month!!” As [...]

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