IVF #1.5

That’s all folks.

by on January 3, 2008

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You know how you start a new school and you begin to make new friends and everything is looking fabulous and then for no obvious reason whatsoever something happens and your friends ditch you and you are all alone at the lunch table with your bagged lunch and feeling sorry for yourself? That is sort [...]

In the moment. (now with beta)

by on December 28, 2007

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I am one of those crazy, foolish people that ask for and look for signs in every day life. If the sun hits the prism on the ceiling fan just so then it will be a good day. If the dog barks to be let back in before 8am it will be a shit day. [...]

It’s a squinter.

by on December 27, 2007

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This morning’s test revealed something. Not an in your face something. Not a celebrate by throwing out the feta cheese something. But something. It was a squinter. A maybe. It was enough to get me to wake up Mother to see if she could see what I saw. My Mother, I should point out, was [...]

The day after.

by on December 26, 2007

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Christmas was a sleepy little hour on our tuesday. Just as GM was beginning to look like she was going to sneak off to bed Mother and I presented her with our lovely stack of holiday cards. She touched the cards that seemed unreal, the ones with shiny gold or flecks of glitter. She traced [...]

The occupied lap.

by on December 23, 2007

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My lap has not been empty since I arrived home Friday afternoon. If I am sitting there is, most often, a perpetually purring cat claiming the lap as her own. She digs a paw into my sides as if to permanently scar my skin- all in an effort to claim me. By these markings here- [...]

Transferred

by on December 19, 2007

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I have written, off line, to my friends about my supreme fear and anxiety over possibly appearing smug or annoying in my recent posts. I mean for fuck’s sake, there is a damn photo of embryos over here. How the hell did that happen? I have been ( & still often reside) in a place [...]

Guest Blogger

by on December 18, 2007

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iotas

She did done good ya’ll. This is the guest blogger, M. Cali took a Valium and is resting peacefully. Below is the internet debut of lil’ iota (left screen) and iota jr. (right screen). Blogging will return to its normal schedule tomorrow. Until then, peace be with you. Added by Cali: For an extra giggle [...]

Letting go of thinking.

by on December 17, 2007

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Do you ever have a moment in your life where everything is so overwhelming and crazy. You find yourself thinking, “how did I get here?” and maybe, “What does it all mean?” Your head begins to hurt as you over-process every little, minute detail. I am in one of those over-thinking moments. The embryologist has [...]

All about the embryos

by on December 16, 2007

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Why do clinics say to expect a call between 9am and 11am and then NOT call then? I have been up and stressing since 8am. A big ball of, “my eggs are going to be shit” anxiety. Finally the call has come in. We can exhale. For now. 24 eggs retrieved, 21 eggs mature. ICSI [...]