Dollars and Sense of Family Building (our story)

[This post is part of an on-line discussion being hosted by Write Mind Open Heart and Baby Smiling. Talking about money is very hard for me. Please keep that in mind.] There are many interesting anecdotes about the day that I was born. It is a day that involved Christmas parties, drunk doctors and a […]

The day the internet changed my life

No joke – Today is a very special and wonderful anniversary for me. Three years ago today the internet helped me have a baby. Seriously. Wait – do you not know this story? Oh it’s a good one. And it’s nice to be reminded that the people on the other end of the wires and […]


summer iotas

One year ago today a kind and lovely tech in a Northeast fertility clinic thawed two embryos and piped some Barry White tunes into the lab. I dared to hope. I dared to believe. It’s not a question that I will attempt to answer here: the, “when did W begin” question. But I do know […]

Pendulum Out

You know that pendulum I was talking about? How it swings out or swings in? Right now it is out in happy land. I hope like hell its stays there for a good long while. There is a positive pregnancy test in my house. From MY pee. At 11 days past ovulation (8 days past […]

Holding of the breath

There is this thing that I do when I am scared. I literally stop breathing for a moment to quiet myself. Now before you start sending in paramedics I only do it for a literal moment. Just a quick instant to hush all of the noise that a body can make during all of that […]

Mixed Messages (with update)

Ah….I am now home in the southeast where it is freakishly cooler than it was in the northeast. Talula and Charlie where thrilled to see me, Mother too. But GM. Oh my dear, sweet, GM. Seeing the look of happiness on her face when I walked out of the baggage area was pure wonderful. It […]

It’s like a heat wave.

The alarm went off at 6:30am and I woke up realizing that I was grossly & stickily covered in sweat. Immediately I became disgruntled as the heat just fouls up any chance of a good mood. I got dressed rapidly, gave myself an injection while eating a banana (I have mad PIO skillz) and was […]