This morning I got up super early, worked out, took a shower and then braved the elements to get to my 8:15 appointment with the small local clinic. I used to deal with bits and pieces of traffic in my old life, but not really. In California I only lived two freeway exits away from [...]
The madness that is an IVF cycle has begun for me. At long fucking last I can kick off my IUI flip flops and climb up another rung of the fertility ladder. But I have to tell you, this being monitored for an out of town IVF is kind of frustrating. Already, on the first [...]
Yesterday I got my packet from the clinic. I was expecting something more exciting, but instead it was just a plain envelope filled with medical orders. oh. Attached was a simple note from the donor coordinator explaining how I needed to complete the enclosed orders as soon as possible. It also said that the director [...]
So as most of you know I am very honest with my GM about this baby making stuff. I wasn’t sure how much information I would share about being a donor, but it turns out that I was able to be totally forthcoming. This morning, as I opened GM’s blinds and got her clothes ready [...]

Do you have any idea how effing hard it is to photograph a fortune cookie? So this is what the message was for me last night. & of course you know Mother and I were all winking and excited about what that message just might mean. Because if anyone would know the state of my [...]
The Yes! I looked fabulous this morning. Very professional and approachable. Very in charge. I showed up on time to my appointment at the local mega clinic and got GM situated with some waiting room magazines. My name was called, I shook hands with the RE, we did the basic chit-chat. I asked him if [...]
Happy Birthday America. You don’t look a day over 200. It is starting to hit me that tomorrow might be a big day for me as far possibilities. If the timing is right and my “sell” spot on, I just might be able to convince the local mega clinic to let me join their shared [...]
I once had an amazing theatre director that gave me the note: Everything is permissible until you ask permission. It was meant to get me out of my goody two shoes head and to let my instincts soar. In a rehearsal there is no wrong way to approach a scene: try any and everything. When [...]
Last night I was a really, really good girl. I made GM a healthy supper, got her safely into bed, went to the fitness center, worked out for 45 minutes (go me!), came home and made a stunning salad for Mother’s and my supper. While I was on the elliptical humming along to the Beastie [...]