i carry your heart with me

I have not been able to breathe this week. Every hour was just one more hour closer to friday. Today. The day that I pinned all of my hopes on. Today was an ultrasound day.

It would have been presumptuous of me to expect to see a heartbeat. But I expected it anyway. I have been chanting, “heartbeat, heartbeat, heartbeat, heartbeat” all week. Willing it to be. Desperate for it to be.

This morning I saw Tartan’s heartbeat. Everything is measuring perfectly. And I cross another day off the long list of hurdles to go.

I return to the clinic in two weeks and I am to have found an OB by then. (OMGOB)


  1. says

    Wonderful, fantastic news! It’s too bad that second beta had to scare you so bad, because the rest of this is looking textbook perfect. Congrats!!

  2. says

    O. M. G. You’re gonna have another baybeee!!!

    P.S. Whoever in Philly who plans Dresden’s shower, put me on the list. I’m coming with little plaid things!

  3. emma says

    I went to see Marisa Peer a few years ago when I was in the grip of secondary infertility and feeling extremely down and stressed out by the whole process of trying to conceive. Her sessions were amazing and totally changed the way I approached trying to get pregnant and my subsequent pregnancy. The negativity and fear faded away and I felt a renewed positivity and confidence that I would conceive and stay pregnant.
    I read marisa’s book Trying to get Pregnant (and Succeeding)as I embarked on IVF and on my first cycle became pregnant with triplets! I feel that Marisa played a hugely positive role in helping me to have another baby (well, three!) and I feel very, very lucky to have found her. Her methods really work.

  4. Maeby says

    This had (somehow, unforgivably) fallen off my radar. And only just now did I remember to check in. HOLY SQUEEEEEEE!!!! For what it’s worth (& not to steal your thunder), it looks like we might be rather close on due dates…

    Congrats dear!

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