There is no way to eloquently explain the state of my person today. I have been a woman ON THE VERGE. Whimpering, sobbing, taking deep breaths, freaking out to friends, swearing to my Mother, unfocused, and just not jiving.
Yup. It was a beta day. I had my blood draw at 7:40am and because of traffic to the clinic I was THIRD in line instead of first. On monday I was called around 10am. So I didn’t even break out in a sweat until 10:03am today. Promise.
At 10:03 the storm cloud hovered over my head. Friends, coworkers and Mom tried their best to umbrella the storm with conversation, distractions, “hey! Look! I’m hanging out with President Obama today!” (true.), and just simply letting me know that my angst was their angst. The virtual waiting room was fantastically crowded today.
At 2:45pm I found myself in the parking lot of W’s school just coming unglued. I needed to know: good news? bad news? I MUST KNOW! I called the clinic and left a totally weepy and pathetic voicemail to the nurses. I totally used the phrase, “are you guys not calling me back because it is really horrible news and you need to have like a team call to break it to me???”
Me = winner of the “best fertility clinic panic attack” contest.
An hour later my favorite nurse called. She began the call with, “I am sorry…”
AND I LOST IT.
But she was attempting to say, “I am sorry I wasn’t able to call you back earlier.” Delays with the labs.
And then she told me. GOOD NEWS! And she squealed with me! (told you she was my favorite)
I was rooting for the number 700. I said it all day like it was a mantra. So you can imagine I was super relieved to hear the number 1441. Good! Strong! NORMAL.
Tomorrow I go in for an ultrasound to confirm all is in my uterus. This is only based on my medical history (aka the zombryo) and not on my blood work. Shit is about to get real, people. I am so excited and happy and relieved (I think I already said that – but there is no better word).
Plaidbryo. You are rocking my world.
p.s. The graph shows the rise from 15dpo to today, 23dpo
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OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!
Grow, Plaidbaby, GROW!
SO. FUCKING. RELIEVED.
Wonderful wonderful!
Whew!!!! Can we close the virtual waiting room for tonight, my hand hurts from hitting refresh!!!!!
YAY Plaidbryo! Can’t wait to hear about good news from your ultrasound tomorrow-will have to keep myself extra busy!
So happy for you!
I have been checking the blog all day long! I am SO freaking happy for you!! This is such unbelievable news. Keep climbing beta!!! Go plaidbryo!!!
Plaid is a beautiful color!
Can I be a GDP again?
Fantastic!!!!
Yea!!! So excited for you!
Go, go, Plaidbryo!
YAYAYAYAYAYYA!!!! /HAPPY DANCE!!!
Dancing around in my office, Hip, Hip Hooray!!! I love your honesty–I was right there with you in the parking lot and on the phone with your favorite nurse! Congratulations–this is big. Liz
xoxoxo. Dancing a happy jig for you!
Yay!!! have you ever been so glad to be closely approximating “average”???
way to go!
Yaaaaaaayyyyyy!!!!! Grow, Plaidbryo, grow!
Yippee!!!! Go, plaidbryo!!
FUCK YES.
Beyond happy for you.
Wowie!
Woot, woot!!!
Whew. Not that I was worried
Loving the nice rise of that green line!
Awesome!
I feel like I should come out there to give you a little smack when you start freaking out before you have news.
Everything sounds really good, so try to keep that in mind instead of worrying about your past history. You know what else your past history includes? One successful production of a delightful little W. So calm it down, sister.
Congrats! Sending wishes that the rest goes smoothly. Like smooth smoothies.
WOO HOO!
GO GO GO, Little Plaidbryo!
Yay!!!!!!!
Awesome news!! sorry about the hellish wait!
Good strong normal SQUEEEEEEEEEEEE heheheheheh
AWESOME!!!!!!!
Can’t wait to hear about the u/s. I know how the beta freak out is. I finally got wise, and started going directly to the hospital lab (open 24-7). They would give you a patient id number, and I could call the lab directly in a couple of hours. Once I figured that trick out, I would have already gotten my beta number hours before the doc’s office would call…. neurotic, but effective. Sending plaid vibes your way! Thank you for the sweet reply to my earlier comment, it made me feel much better. Your post just happened to come at the right time, and it is hard to tell people IRL that kind of stuff.
This is all so, so exciting! I hope the ultrasound goes perfectly today!
Yay! So happy for you!
You give me hope! My first two betas doubled on the slow side. I haven’t had any since. Today is my u/s as well. I hope we both come away with happy news!
Whoo hoo!!!! Yes!!!! Go baby go!!!!
Congrats!!!!!
YES! *high fives*
Yay!
I didn’t see this until today and I’m sitting here with happy tears streaming down my face. I am so freaking thrilled for you.
Yay Dres! I’m so happy for you!!! (and so sad I can’t be physically there to do a happy dance) xo