Well. This blows. My beta was (is?) 111.
It did not double.
I got the, “it’s fine! They double between 48-72 hours!” talk from the nurse. But we all know what this means.
I am to continue all meds and come back Monday for repeat blood work.
My ONLY request of the Universe: if this isn’t going to happen PLEASE resolve quickly.
I hate the part where I feel like an idiot for trying and for hoping.
/epicsad
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It didn’t double yet. I know you hate this, but there still is hope. Maybe less hope? But still. Hope. Can I be the positive one here and see that you aren’t in the orange zone? You’re not an idiot. You’re an amazing mother, daughter, and friend. You are doing everything you can to build your family. That is a brave thing. A beautiful thing. A HEROIC thing after all you’ve been through.
Sending a lot of love and hope and all good things. Wishing I could speed up time for you to get you to Monday.
Curse IF and the waiting, waiting, waiting. More not knowing. Monday is so far away. But I am going to carry the hope all weekend… come on beta! Sorry for this beta torture, Dresden, but there is still hope.
I know there is nothing we can say to make you feel better but know you are in the thoughts and prayers of so many many including me! xoxo
I will hold your hope for you while you can’t, but don’t allow yourself to feel stupid for hoping at all.
Love you. xoxo
What Moxie said. Sorry you have to deal with this mind fuck! xoxo
I’m so sorry you’re stuck in this bullshit beta hell again. I’m hoping against hope that the next beta shoots up!
Why would you feel like an idiot for trying? Chance of success without trying = 0. So feel sad, or discouraged, or whatever. Don’t feel like an idiot.
Meanwhile, I shall hope that things are much better on Monday.
Abiding with you.
Ugh! This is the worst part of IF — the not knowing what is going on. I really, really hope that all is well and it works out despite the not great numbers. *Hugs*
hoping hoping hoping hoping hoping hoping
I’m sorry. This does blow. I hope/pray for a decisive next result. Sad for you.
This is so unfair. I hate this so much for you. I wish we could give you a clear answer. Hugs to you!
Not fair, universe, NOT FAIR!
Hang in there, I’ll be hoping, wishing, praying for you.
((HUGS))
I’m sorry.
I’ve had betas all over the map, and I thought my kids would come from textbook perfect betas; it pissed me off to no end when folks would tell me that low betas can work out and I was steeling myself for the worst. But with my son, beta did not double *over four days* and he’s now 11 months. It can happen. I hope it does for you.
I’m just gonna sit here and help moxie. Xoxo
I’m sorry the news wasn’t better. I will keep hoping for you.
((hugs)) and hope.
I am going to work on the hoping with the others. The waiting sucks, the sadness sucks– I’ll also be hoping that you have some wonderful distractions to get you through the weekend.
Sending much love and hopes for a solid answer quickly, whichever way it goes.
Shit shit shit motherfucking shit.
What Cecily said.
I’m not giving up hope yet. I will agree that this sucks, a lot. But I will keep the hope that this is just a blip or maybe going from two to one. Love you.
I’m so sorry. The Universe is so unfair with all the waiting waiting waiting waiting in IF world, even when you got a +pg test and +beta. I want to say it’s still early for the doubling period (wasn’t your first beta supposed to be today anyways?) but i know right now you know all that info more than me, someone who has never even had a positive beta. so i’m just sending you hugs and peace.
I was wondering as well- could this be as simple as having gone in early?
No matter the case… Sending tremendous warm, comforting, hopeful thoughts out to the universe for you!!
Shit. I was so bummed to come here and see this, Dresden. I will keep my fingers crossed that you get a good spike for your next test, or worst case scenario, like you said, a quick resolution. Sending big hugs your way.
Still hoping for you. I know the anguish you are feeling so well! Still and always rooting for you.
I’m so sorry, honey.
Exactly what Cecily said. And also exactly what Bionic said.
fucking a
Well, that blows chunks. I’m sorry. I hope you get the miracle outcome though, and this turns out to be just another blip in the road.
Hang tight, babe. Just hang tight.
I’m going to be optimistic and hope Monday brings good numbers. I’m sorry this is so stressful.
I’m hoping too ….
Hugs!
The universe can be so not cool sometimes. I’m going to hope my hardest that your little plaidbryo is just a trickster and Monday’s number is of the good kind.
Hugs and helping everyone else to hope for you!
Loving you… praying for you and hoping for increasing. ((hugs))
A hug. A prayer. Thinking of you.
I’m sorry. Still hoping for you and sending hugs.
I’m sorry it didn’t double I hope it keeps going strong though.
crosses fingers and toes and send lots of mojo your way for monday (hugs)
Never feel stupid for hoping, I am hoping right there with you.
Sending love to get you through the weekend.
I read this on another blog and thought of you.
, “If you get caught up in the worst case scenario and it doesn’t happen, you’ve wasted your time. And if you are caught up in the worst case scenario and it does happen, you’ve lived it twice.” -Michael J. Fox
I still have hope that this one will work out!
I’m so sorry! Am praying, wishing, and hoping right along with you!
This isn’t fucking fair! I’m praying hard…but, dammit, this isn’t fucking fair.
Hang tight.
We are here with you.
FETs are a funny beast but I won’t blow sunshine your way.
im still hoping for you dear. <3
{{{hugs}}}
Fuck. I’m enveloping you in good news and lots of hope. xoxo
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