Yesterday morning was my ‘WTF happened’ and ‘WTF do we do next’ call with one of the RE’s on my case. I like that I have multiple doctors involved. It makes me feel special. (really it’s just that one doctor is on leave but still wants to be involved-ish)
The call happened in the middle of horrible, awful, no good, very bad thunderstorms and I thought, “but of course!” A torrential rain pour was the perfect soundtrack for a call that I had high anxiety about.
We began by talking about how I am feeling (ok), if I had any lingering issues or side effects from the methotrexate (nope), and what did I want to do (have a baby, please). I was informed that many patients go through the epic long bullshit of an ectopic and decide that they don’t want to try again. There was some silence and then I quickly said, “well that’s not me. Let’s do this!”
(OBVIOUSLY I understand how someone could be so incredibly destroyed after an ectopic pregnancy. I feel like the zombryo was a misfire from the start and I have been ready to move on since the day of my 3rd beta. I know many women have much more of a difficult emotional journey so I am not trying to make light of anyone’s choice — but simply stating, for me, hoping to try again was the ONLY thing getting me through.)
Back to the call…
The first order of business, and this is no surprise, is that I need to have an HSG performed. I dread this, but understand this. There might be a reason why an ectopic happened and an HSG could show what that reason is. Or it could show that things are fine and what happened was just an awful “shit happens” moment. I am hoping that things are all clear.
I was surprised that my doctor went on to say that if they did find something going on with my tubes that I should consider having them removed. I do not need them to achieve pregnancy. This was kind of a bold statement and I stammered a bit. Her response was a pragmatic, “Look – many women panic and think if they have awful results from their HSG tests that they won’t be able to have a baby. I just want you to remove that thought from your head.”
Oh. Hmmm.
Cost is a factor right now and I am waiting to hear back about a clinic in another state that performs HSG’s for a very reasonable price. My doctor would read the test and then based on findings we would go from there. Hopefully “there” is an embryo transfer.
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That sounds optimistic. Fingers crossed the clinic calls you back quickly and the HSG price is reasonable.
Glad to hear that things are getting started again! I hope all is well with the HSG (sidenote — you have had an HSG before so you might already know this, but I found taking three ibuprofen about an hour before the test made it nearly pain free).
Hope it goes well – in the pantheon of invasive procedures I found the HSG not too bad (but I also dosed up with ibuprofen beforehand).
I also dosed up wit hpain killers before the HSG and it really wasn’t to bad – more discomfort than pain. And it only took about 3 minutes to complete. Good luck! xxx Looking forward to ‘there’.
That sounds promising! And it’s always good to be on the road rather than sitting and waiting.
My HSG wasn’t too bad. Felt like cramps during, but that didn’t last long. Good luck with it!
Fingers crossed.
Yeah, boy! Let’s get this party started.
I vote for baby as well (since my opinion counts). I hope that you find a super cheap (and pain free and clear…) HSG
I agree- for me, not trying again was a much more scary option.
And steps forward! Hooray!
I’m glad there is a plan in place. Although I never had to do IVF, the thought of trying again made each of my losses a bit more bearable.
I have an HSG in 2 weeks to get ready for our first IVF. We are not new to infertility unfortunately, just IVF. This is RE number 2 and I saw the first one 9 years ago when we conceived our daughter, then got pregnant with our son (surprise!) when she was a couple months old. Anyway, when I asked how bad it would be my doctor literally laughed at me and said, “Not as bad as that cervical biopsy you had done a while back!” I’m hoping he’s right because OMG that was awful. Our out of pocket cost is $600 for the HSG (no IF insurance) so in the grand scheme of IVF, it’s not all that bad.
After having been away for some time, I’m really glad to experience your positivity when I came back! You really make me realise how strong humans can be. Best wishes for the way forward, keep up the great spirit.
Am I being a bit dense but am I the only person who found her comment “Look – many women panic and think if they have awful results from their HSG tests that they won’t be able to have a baby. I just want you to remove that thought from your head.” a bit odd in light of the fact that you HAVE already had a baby?
xxx
PS – my one friend had her tubes removed and she now has two beautiful twin girls, so your tubes are not required for a pregnancy – she was right about that one
xxx