When we lived in Florida I used to use the afternoon when respite care came to go to an old and mostly hidden graveyard. Tucked between the collapsing and crumbling headstones were breathtakingly huge camellia bushes. I would park the car in the shade and hone in on the most vibrant of pink blooms and photograph them. It made me feel grounded to document the flowers.
One day I became entranced with an ant climbing across the edges of the petals of one of the palest of pink camellias. It was the most complicated and difficult way to travel on its journey and with each breeze it would tuck into a crevice and then return to its path. I have no idea where its final destination was but I believed completely that this ant would make it.
“Do not wait until the conditions are perfect to begin. Beginning makes the conditions perfect.”
I know, totally a bumper sticker phrase, but it has been something that has been pinging around my brain for a while. There is probably never going to be a perfect time for me to try to have another child. But I decided to begin, and in my gut? It feels perfect.
This morning, after I dropped W off at school, I made the call to the Northeast clinic to get the ball rolling on an FET in late Winter/early Spring. It’s nice to not be an out-of-town patient, but because “so much” time has happened between my IVF cycle in 2007 I will be treated as a new patient. I am fine with that as I never actually met a doctor while I was an out of towner.
My number one goal is that I want to be as chill as I possibly can about this. There is some relief that we probably know the reason for my unexplained infertility issues (oh yes, I am looking at you wonky thyroid!) and at the end of the day I have this amazing son in my life.
My doctor consult is at the end of this month and I am pretty giddy about it. It’s been a while since I blogged about lady bits so I’ll ease you in gently.
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This makes me super duper happy. Best of luck. I hope you mirror my experience in that the first go round was much more difficult than anticipated but the second go round is knock your socks off quick
Yay, this is such an exciting news! Keeping my fingers crossed for you that everything goes according to your plan
This news just made me ten shades of happy. I’m already holding my breath.
What a great start to 2012. I’m imagining happy outcomes.
I CALL THE BABY SHOWER! (Again. Whatever. I don’t care if I had my turn, I still said it first.)
Wow, that’s incredible news!!! Excited…..
And boy do you ever look like your mom in your profile photo. Wow.
Woo and hooooo!
Can we be knocked up together at last?!
Omigodomigodomigod!!!
That is so exciting.
Wishing you the easiest possible journey this time.
SQUEEEEEE!!!! 2012 is going to ROCK!
Wow, this is incredible! We have an appointment with our RE on the 9th to get the ball rolling on an FET in a similar time frame. I am thinking it will be March before actual cycling.
Excited, nervous, and trying to remember to breathe!
Hoping it is easy for you!
So super squealy excited for you! So this weekend I was driving and thinking big brothers and little brothers and about my friends who had kids when we had B and my thoughts settled on you and I thought maybe possibly someday soon I’d see something like this. Over the moon for you!
What great news to start off the new year! Hoping all goes easily and smoothly.
So exciting! Wishing you all the best
Just wondering if maybe you could do medicated IUI’s since you figured out the issue. Just sayin.
Lots of luck to you!
That is thrilling information! I am so happy for you!
Oh this is exciting and lovely news to start the year with
How exciting. Good luck to you.
Holy Crap! Much luck….
Good luck! Excited to hear more about your journey.
Wow, that’s big news! Best of luck!!!
Huge news! Congrats on the decision Dresden
Here’s to baby #2 in 2012!!
xxx
What beautiful news. I can’t wait to follow along, and I hope it’s easy peasy this time around. xo
That is so exciting, yay
Wow. Good luck with everything. I so admire you – I couldn’t go through it all again.
Wow. And that’s one of my favorite photos, like, ever.
so excited!!!! and good luck
Sending so many good thoughts for an easy journey. What a huge step!
That’s really exciting all around! Sending you good vibes and wishes!
Wheee!
Yeah, yeah, YEAH! So exciting!!! Fingers crossed for as smooth a journey as possible to W’s sibling.
Yay!!! So excited for you. If it helps…my second child was conceived on the first try after trying for my son for 3 years…so hopefully the second go round will be smooth sailing…
O!M!G! Just catching up. How exciting! I will totally come to Philly for your shower. I am invited, right? Mwah!
Wow! How exciting!! Looking forward to your progress in preparation for your FET!
Yay!
Such wonderful, exciting news!
Very excited for you!
I am so very thrilled to read this. So excited about the possibilities for you!
WOW! Such exciting news!
I started reading your blog about a month ago, while on a month break from my own quest for single motherhood. It has been amazing to read about how you have persevered, and are now an awesome mom! I have a supportive set of family and friends, but this process can be lonely at times. You and your fellow bloggers have helped me feel less alone in this.
Your stories have helped me recharge myself for my own journey (who knew a month off could seem so long?). Hopefully we both get our New Year’s wish!
Sorry for the long delurking post. I’ll be less long-winded next time.
So excited fo you. x
I am late as usual, but this is very exciting news!
Squee! More baby cuteness! I hope it goes quickly and easily for you this time.
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