Can it really be that fast?

The past week was honestly a bit of a haze. I pushed myself to get out of the house, socialize, be active, be present, be a part of the world at large. But it was hard. So very hard. I honestly have never known fatigue like this before. Ever. Just turning from one position to another while sleeping hurts in such a non pain like way. My head has been in a cloudy fog and I have just been feeling dim.

Thursday night, just to show me that there is always a basement level to whatever “bottom” you are experiencing, I succumbed to such an evil gut bug that I was blind with pain. Gut bug decided to go to town on every part of me and it won.

I arrived at my mid Friday morning doctor’s appointment empty and a shell of a person. I contemplated canceling it because just riding in the car was a pain and I honestly didn’t know if it was the bug or this other thing.

Oh but I am much better at not caving in to the desire to shut out the world and I recruited Mother to drive and entertain W during my appointment.

The appointment was very informational. The height issue is still pretty much a WTF, shoulder shrug, thing so I am going to celebrate my increased Amazon Woman status and let any worries about that go. (the test for excess human growth hormone was all fine) I am very depleted in Vitamin D, and apparently so are you. Seriously. Turns out many, many people are these days and it is wrecking havoc on us. There is a total link between people that are depressed and people that are lacking in D. I have been put on a prescription dose that I will take for once a week for a couple of months. I call it my sunshine pill. Pale people of the world rejoice.

The other stuff we talked about was the nest of auto-immune issues that are lighting up for me. We talked about how to specifically treat the Hashimoto’s and what I can expect from the medication. I am on a synthetic thyroid medicine now with the goal to get my number to 1. I still don’t quite get the thyroid number stuff but I will learn. I go back in 6 weeks for blood work to see how things are going. I am also to call if I feel no changes. This stuff should help evaporate many of my health complaints right now but since I am taking generic there can be a wide range of pill types and not every kind works for every person. la dee da

So here is where I quietly wonder if maybe the medication is already working. I mean can it really work that fast? I still feel incredibly tired and slow, but it was easier to wake up today than it was yesterday. And to me that is progress.

This morning Mother has taken W to a little church down the road. They went last week so I could sleep (yay) and had such a nice time they decided to go again. (& then grocery shop- double yay) There is a lot of singing and a lot of kids so W enjoyed it. I’m still tiptoeing around church and faith but W is this brand new person and I like the idea of him being around joyful noise.

Today I dressed him in the suit that we had purchased for him to wear to Grandmother’s funeral. Only the tie and vest fit at the time, but now he wears it well. But I have to admit it brought back a lot of stuff to see him in it.