Don’t get me wrong, I am still a massive lover of the snow, but oh my lawd has this pocket of sunshine been wonderful. Glorious even. Usually such bright light illuminates all of the gunk in my life, all of the unkempt chaos itching away at me. But today I allowed the sun to be warmth, comfort, easy.
The turn in mood began yesterday afternoon when an e-mail arrived letting us know that we had won a local lottery. No, not a monetary, balloons and megaphones kind of lottery, but a once in a lifetime Willy Wonka kind of lottery: we got tickets to the White House Egg Roll. Suddenly there was something huge and exciting to look forward to. Something to plan for.
It also helped de-stress something that I had been stressing about: W’s first birthday. I have been cringing about it. Not necessarily over the beautiful passage of time, but because when you are literally living out of your suitcase, etc planning a party, or even thinking about planning a party is just something of a novelty and not an actuality.
(& I absolutely know that first birthdays are not really for the kids, but for the parents, but I can’t deny that I didn’t have a wee bit of pining and sadness over not being able to DO anything to mark the day in any sort of grand way…)
But now. Now! Birthday party at the White House. Yay!
Today I went over to LJ’s house to sit at her beautifully shod feet and soak up all of the learning that she has been getting in her digital photography classes. I am totally self taught with my own camera and don’t know much about being in control of a shot. We spent just about the entire day following W & V around the house and the yard photographing them in various settings and getting beyond geeked out about light.
Yes. Light. Total aha moment about that as I was driving back. I have been in search of, in a quest for, light. I am sitting in the dark and scary shadows of my life right now just craving the light. So having a moment where I could control, and dare I say harness, the light was empowering beyond words. I don’t know how to put this power into my actual life.
Which is why I am thinking my increase in medication might be working. Because I want to be in the light, I want to be optimistic and hopeful. I need to be. I must be.
Here is a photo of the alphabet boys in LJ’s yard. An elderly lady walked by and asked if they were twins. Which of course is just all kinds of funny.
(by the way my limericks are up for a vote over at Weebles Webblog…you know, if you want to vote for me or something. No pressure. cough*cough)
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They do look alike – adorable!
How cool that you are going to the white house?! Wowzers!
For his birthday, let him unroll a whole roll of toilet paper. It is what I gave Elizabeth for Christmas and she could not have been more thrilled. That is the best grand gesture there is.
Tell everyone to vote for me in your contest!
What an awesome first birthday event!
The boys do look a bit alike – probably the similar outfits. Both are adorable.
Wow, what an incredibly cool way to celebrate your very special boy’s birthday.
Very cute picture of the alphabet boys.
Snow helps sunshine look so much sweeter. Hope you enjoy your son’s first birthday!
Glad things are looking better. Hope you all have fun at the White House egg roll. What is an egg roll though?
That is so cool! Congrats on scoring the golden ticket!
they do kind of look alike! just cute little adorable boys I guess.
cool first birthday for W too!
White House birthday – WHOA! Way cool! H got a cupcake and a balloon and Z just got a cupcake
So lame!
Such a cool first bday gift. “What did you do for your first birthday?” “Nuttin’ really. Just hung out with the Obamas.”
Dude, at W’s age he doesn’t eve know he HAS a birthday. Kids don’t get the whole birthday thing until they’re, like, three or four. You have ages to save up for that bounce house and make-your- own sundae bar.