You are welcome for not going into allllll the details of my anxiety right now but my anxiety cup runneth over. Like total double d’s of anxiety in a victoria secret zebra print demi cup. Maybe I will vent/purge/share when I am not so emotional, but I just felt the need to put it out there- I’m not in such a great place.
A group of friends call this time “going into the blanket tent”. When the world is falling down around you sometimes the most comforting place is under a make-shift fort made out of old blankets. But it can get dark in there, and lonely. And I do have an awful habit of boxing away and retreating when things get really hard. So instead of crawling into the fort on my own I am leaving a flap of blanket flipped up so that some light or friendly faces can shine in.
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Well, I love you.
I will bring my flashlight, can we tell ghost stories? Just not very scary ones, mmkay, because I’m a ‘fraidy cat.
xo
Crawling in with you and bringing cake.
Friendly face…waving hi!
Hope the anxiety eases soon…
I thought I was the only one hiding under the tent of blankets…
I’l share my flashlight with you. xo
*hugs*
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I’ll bring the peppermint joe-joes.
I’m feeling similar myself. Sending out internet support and love. Hang in there!!
Can I come too? I have Girl Scout cookies, Thin Mints!
We call it the cave. I’ve been there many times. Don’t worry…the light will shine in a little stronger one day and you’ll have the strength to crawl out. We’ll be waiting.
Can you make some room in there… I am coming in and bringing in the portable DVD player and some “sure to make you laugh and distract you if only for a brief moment” movies…
Your mom and I corresponded some last year about helping her find a job. Her story and several others inspired me to use my blog to profile some job seekers – and now I can’t find the emails from when she and I originally wrote, so I can ask her if she’d be interested in being profiled.
Your blog is way more popular than mine, believe me. But mine is read mostly by HR pros and recruiters — so if she’s not working yet, it might help? Please have her give me a shout if she might be interested.
Thanks!
Holding you in my thoughts–you know all of us would cram in that tent of yours if you need us.
hoping you get through this funk quickly… you might not have a choice when you look at that beautiful boy of yours…
Hi! Awesome fort you got here. I brought mint chocolate chip ice cream, you want some? I know it’s no peppermint, but it’s all I could find.
Hey there, hope you feel better soon!
I, too, am bringing the Ben & Jerry’s pint. Hell, maybe I’ll pick up a half gallon. Love you.
I hear you. My husband is doing the same thing you are right now. All I can say it stick your head out of the tent for some fresh air on occasion and remember right now you’re on the way to where you want to get to.
I”m peeking in the flap and smiling…I make great shadow animals and not tenting is complete without s’mores! You will come through this stronger than you were a minute ago…sending you warm thoughts, a big hug and saying a little prayer for you!
Sending warm thoughts and lots of light your way…
Hugs!
My new cell phone has a flashlight application. No lie. I’d be happy to pop by the tent and share some light.
peeking in, saying ‘hi’!
if I were there, I would ask you to come out and play or dance with me. hope things lighten very soon.
I too hope things feel better soon! I almost wish you would share some of the anxieties so we can help you debunk them- somehow my worries usually feel better when shared with friendly faces. oh also I wish the dang scramble app was working because I miss playing it with you!! xoxo
Make that words with friends!
Since I have nothing to do during my days (besides chasing three little monkeys), we’ll camp out next door and bring you anything you need.
I feel for you. Actually I feel like doing the same myself these days. It’s hard. It’s hard too that I feel so guilty about being depressed, specially when I always thought making my dream come true (becoming a mother) would end my depression for ever….sadly it hasn’t. Wish I could come over and crawl in with you – I’d bring chocolate and a hugs.
Can I come inside and join you and plan something fun for next week?
I could bring cupcakes. I’m a really big fan of those lately. That and sugar as a sedative.
Thinking of you and sending many hugs.
just popping along (so sorry for the lack of commenting recently; life’s been on FFWD) to add a couple of cushions and pass you a giant bar of chocolate. hugts xxxx
I love you very much and am lifting the flap….. I pass you a glass of wine, a square of dark chocolate, and I tell you a dirty joke. I see that you almost cracked a smile! That’s it, I’m coming in there…. wow, you can sure cram a whole bunch of people who love you in here! I like your socks.
I hope that whatever is going on, you can feel the love pouring out of your screen, and that it gives you the strength to work through this. You know we are all here waiting to help. {{{hugs}}}
Yeah, I call that going in a cave. I like your idea better: Leave a flap open. And remember how much support you have out here. XXOO
I feel ya sister. (((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
on my way, too… and i am bringing another blanket cuz it looks like we need to expand the fort with all those loving peeps who are already there… xoxo love you
I rarely comment here although I love your blog. I just wanted to tell you I’m sorry you’re feeling so yucky and I’m sending great thoughts and hugs your way.
~hugs~
hi there. i just went back to your post for when W was born and read up to the present. i intend to go back to the very beginning at some point
i just wanted to say “hi, i’m new to your blog”. it’s been a pleasure to read your straightforward posts. some of the things you’ve written about i’ve been afraid to voice, like depression. i know how dark it can get. chin up 
i can’t wait to get to know more about your life with W and Mother.
I don’t have a blanket tent, but have been known to crawl under a rock plenty a time or two. Glad you left a flap up.
friendly face peeking in, handing you a peppermint ice cream cone.
It’s cozy in here. Let’s start counting til spring… just 18 more days…. sunshine and warmth are on their way.
Putting it out there is a good start. I believe that sharing with others you will recover from this difficult time. I admire your strength to keep going and going. I would have caved with half of what you have been coping with. You know you have people here that care about you so you are smart to let us know you need support. Otherwise, how do we know? Giving you my softest cuddle blanket for your “tent” I keep for my grand daughter when she is here.
I think we need a campfire and some s’mores. Hope your tent is outside. If not, we’ll just have to get mom to let us use the stove.
Wherever you are, just hold tight to the thought that this, too, shall pass, and you WILL get to a place where everything will be okay. After reading you for the last few years, I know that you are smart and strong and resilient, and life isn’t going to throw you more than you can handle. Sending you lots of peace.
sorry sweetie. wish i could come help