Comments on: Get yourself a frosty beverage because it’s going to be a long one

By: Rebeccah

Rebeccah — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 18:31:10 +0000

OMG! The Mel & W photo made me yip out loud! : ) And that sky — wow.

Thank heavens for all these lovely women, without whom we’d all feel much more broken than we already do …

By: Salome

Salome — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 16:26:33 +0000

That rug is beyond awesome! What a great mom you have to finagle it for you.
You know, I think you’re getting dogma mixed up with faith. Just because some church-type people embrace ideas that are hateful and mean doesn’t mean that God is cruel. You might find answers at a Spiritualist church, if there’s a good one near you. John Edwards is a showman first and foremost but that doesn’t mean our departed loved ones aren’t healed and happy somewhere very close to us. And if we watch and listen very carefully we can occasionally catch a glimpse of them and realize how they’re still present in our lives.
You already have an astonishing miracle in the form of W. Go back and read some of your old posts where you were crushed and convinced that you’d never have a baby of your very own. And there are more miracles to come, I’m convinced of it.

By: loribeth

loribeth — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:44:12 +0000

Wonderful post. I must say, it warmed my heart to see the photo of Mel holding W on her blog (& now yours). She had a lot to do with him getting here!

By: cmay

cmay — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 01:21:02 +0000

Wow. I totally get your ideas and morphing views on religion. I’m there with you. I don’t think I believe in Jesus Christ or God, but I want to. I really really do. I know it helps people who have fairth to weather tough times. And I want that kind of back up support for my son should he need it in the future. Without any prompting be me, T has been asking to go to church on Sundays. I said we’d go, and I saw one church on the way to his school that might be interesting, but we’ve overslept or whatever and it hasn’t happened yet. But part of me feels like I’m pretending and even lying to my son about God and Jesus–very much like I so with Santa Claus. It doesn’t come from my heart, but I’d like him to buy into it so it might help along his long and crooked path in life. You know?

By: Trish

Trish — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 13:40:55 +0000

I’m so glad that things seem to be looking up for you and your family. So far, this move seems like it has been the most awesome decision for you. And can I just say that W gets cuter each day???!!!!

By: Paz

Paz — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 04:17:47 +0000

Can’t believe I met Cali (she’s everything you’d expect, with the face of a hollywood star of yesteryear) and I went to TOOTPU. Somewhere in my wicked childhood, I must have done something mighty good to deserve so much good.

And! I met – and even held – W! He flirted with me, I flirted back, he mumbled something like ‘yeah, I’ll go back to my mama now please.’

It was fun, we must meander again sometime.

By: Sarah

Sarah — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:37:04 +0000

Unless I totally misunderstood you, It sounds like, maybe, the ‘broken’ doesn’t feel quite so jagged. And that is JUST FINE. It’s good to be able to be healed. (((HUGS)))

By: Man-annie Oakley

Man-annie Oakley — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:27:23 +0000

I was wondering if the “frosty beverage” is from Strange Brew or maybe Fast tImes?

I totally agree with the wanting to hug you SO HARD after reading some of your posts. You are seriously one of the BEST people to read even when you are rambling and you feel incoherent. I have never battled the battle that you and so many of your friends have, but you bring the raw emotion to life so vividly and I ache. I ache for you and for your experience, for your joy and how somehow, it just still feels broken. I don’t really know of any woman who doesn’t feel that way. I certainly do. Albeit, I didn’t have to endure the bravery of infertility, but I still wished for my child with all of my heart, I wished for the change he would bring to my life. I still feel broken. I agree with your statement – Children change everything, except everything they don’t change at all. And sometimes they raise more questions than they answer… that seems to be a running theme with me lately. I love you, I am so happy that you have such a wonderful group of women that you can physically hang out with and who support you so whole-y. You are so loved.
PS – That picture of the watercolor sky is stunning!!!! You should submit it to National Geographic.

By: Michelle

Michelle — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 13:17:54 +0000

i think i will always be broken. even while my daughter toddles and is off into the world one day. I will always be infertile…..broken. so I get it. and if that isn’t a mind f(*& get this…..I sometimes feel guilty from walking away from my infertility war with a baby. imagine. guilty.