Something that I haven’t been blogging about in depth is some of the difficult stuff GM has been going through lately. I won’t go into detail here, but her issue resulted in my rushing her to the hospital yesterday. Thankfully there is virtually a brand new Mayo Clinic Emergency Facility two blocks away and she was seen immediately.
GM becomes completely disoriented in a hospital. She is at times adorable and witty and then instantly screaming and confused. Mother and I were able to be with her for every exam and procedure and that was very helpful in keeping her calm.
Watching someone you love suffer with pain is one of the worst things ever. But when that someone has a memory disease it just seems cruel and so very unjust. Every 2 minutes she would repeat the awareness of hurting. It just makes me so incredibly upset to think about that right now.
We were able to get a diagnosis for two things that we can begin to treat at home. And thankfully we were discharged late last evening.
Every time GM has to go to the hospital we loose more of her. Sometimes she will sort of bounce back in a week or so, but usually the disorientation sets her back permanently. I am truly worried about who she will be when she wakes up this morning. I worry about how altered she will be, and how long she will stay that way.
I will be taking a small internet break for a few days so that I can focus on her 100%. Your thoughts and prayers are appreciated and desired.
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Sending you all lots of love and light.
sending you, your mother & GM all my love…
please call if you need an ear, ok?
wish i was closer and could help or bring dinner or walk the dog…
love you,
gypsy
Your GM is lucky to have you. I remember going through similar experiences with my grandfather (Pepere). He lived with us and my parents were his primary caretakers. I was in middle-school at the time so a lot of the detail went over my head but it is a frightening and frustrating time to watch someone you love not be able to pull themselves back into what we know is reality. I remember my parents did a lot of crying in their bedroom.
You are a wonderful person to be there 100% and so devoted. I’m sure deep down that is a great comfort to her.
Awwww, Millie. I am thinking about you and GM.
I am so sorry hun, sending much love and light and peace to you and GM and your mom and your baby right now.
You’re definitely in my prayers. I wonder if the clinic can work out a travelling doctor arrangement so GM can be treated in your house instead of the hospital. *hugs*
Love and hugs to you all. You are so right about the disorientation that occurs in and from hospitals.
So sorry to hear. This must just be unimaginably hard on all of you.
Thoughts going your way…
Sending lots of love. You are all in my thoughts. Many hugs!! xxxx
Sending love and strength, and saying a Misheberach (healing prayer)
So sorry. You’ll all be in my thoughts.
so sorry, calliope. thinking of you and GM.
Sending love and light to you, GM and your mom.
It’s a cruel, cruel disease, and I’m so sorry you have to deal with it.
Thinking of GM, you and your mom.
Many warm thoughts coming to you and GM.
Always. And I am sorry about this form of long goodbye. It is so unjust.
I’m so sorry your GM has to go through this.
lots of love, and you’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. Your GM is so very lucky to have you.
My thoughts are with you.
Hey girl. I’ll be thinking of you.
Sending lots of love and prayers your way.
Take care of grandma and yourself. xo
Sweetie, I’m so sorry you’re going through this right now and my thoughts are with your Grandma as well as you and your mother.
Take care and stay strong. Wishing you and your GM all the best.
Oh Cali, I’m so sorry you and your family have to work through this. As always, thinking of you.
Sending good wishes your way for you and your family.
Wishing you both well.
Prayers
I have a GM of my own in very much the same place. I totally know how heart-breaking it is. I have you and your family in my thoughts…
Thinking of you so hard.
Poor GM and poor you! I’m sending thoughts and prayers your way. When my grandmother was going through a bad patch she loved looking at a kaleidoscope. The changing patterns and bright colors soothed her. Maybe your GM would enjoy one?
Sending thoughts and prayers and warm wishes to you, GM, and your mom. xo
Aw, damn! I was so hoping you’d be able to take some time and just sort of…bask…y’know? You certainly deserve it! I’m also very glad that you all three got to go to the u/s and get that wonderful news first (this is my first time reading since the first beta–that’s it, young lady, you’re in BLOGLINES now and there is no escaping! I hope that GM “bounces back” as well as possible and that everything, you know, uterus-related *ahem* continues to be beautifully normal and uneventful. I’ll be worrying…do let us know if anything major happens, won’t you?
Warm and lucid thoughts coming your way.
You have them always.
i was nervous when i didn’t see a post yesterday. sending you and GM lots of well wishes and support…
sending you lots of good wishes too..
You and your GM are in my thoughts and prayers.
Thoughts and prayers are with you.
much strength and warm wishes to you and your family.
Calliope, It makes me sad to learn that your GM needed hospital care, I truly hope the diagnosis will aid in keeping her healthy at home. I cannot imagine the sadness you feel as you lose bits of her daily. I will pray for your GM’s health, and peace for all of you. On a happier note, I hope you are feeling some crazy fun pregnancy symptoms.
My prayers are with you!
So sorry Cali – that must be so tough to deal with. Take all the time you need. We’ll all be here when you come back.
Lots of love and prayers coming your and GM’s way all the way from South Africa!
HUGS!
Cali- What a bittersweet time this must be for you. Sending plenty of good wishes for your grandmother’s well-being and for peace of mind for you, as well. I’ll have you all in my thoughts today.
prayers and hugs for you and you family.
Love, thoughts and many good wishes being sent to all of you. Hang in there we all have your virtual hand in ours.
Thinking of you and your family.
Thoughts and prayers are on the way. Let me know if I can do anything else to help.
Thinking of you. xoxo
I’m sorry Cali. I am keeping your whole family in my thoughts and prayers.
Thinking of you and your family and keeping you in my prayers. I helped a close friend care for his grandmother daily as she slid further and further into Alzheimer’s and it was truly the most painful and exhausting thing I’ve ever experienced. Please remember to take care of yourself, as much as you can, whenever you can.
I’m sorry you and GM are going through this. I’m sure she is thankful that you are there with her, even if she can’t tell you!! I will pray for you all.
Thinking of you.
I’m so sorry there have to be bad days. It is an amazing, beautiful, wonderful thing that you get to spend this time with her, though, and that you are doing it for her. You are both incredibly lucky to be able to have this time together–and you are amazingly, incredibly selfless, because I’m sure it’s also really hard sometimes. Hang in there.
Many, many thoughts and prayers for you and GM.
Many thoughts for you and your family.