Pendulum Out

You know that pendulum I was talking about? How it swings out or swings in?

Right now it is out in happy land. I hope like hell its stays there for a good long while.

There is a positive pregnancy test in my house. From MY pee. At 11 days past ovulation (8 days past a 3 day transfer). I am hoping like hell this one decides to stay around. We all know that lots of shit can happen, but, unlike last time I am making the choice to be elated from the get go. Fuck angst and nerves. Nothing is in my control right now except how I process this fucking awesome step. The choice is mine: submit to the hallway of doom and bad memories or run for the hills to twirl and sing.

I’m twirling.

magic pee