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April Showers bring…
Yes. It’s true. This blog is just no damn fun anymore. Not for me, not for you guys. Not for the 4 people that unsubscribed last week. I get it. This blog was born to be a place for me to chronicle the journey of conceiving, birthing and raising a child. I had high hopes for the blog. I was going to turn it into a book, sell the rights and relish in blogging about the casting sessions for the Lifetime movie.
Along the way I met some amazing people. True friends and sisters. I will always be thrilled to have gotten to know you. Always honored that you decided to sit with me on dark days, celebrate with me on good days and stop by for a visit even when nothing exciting was going on.
So I guess that brings us to now. I have never wanted to write a blog that was dull, write posts like shopping lists, and feel burdened by needing to be clever when clever is the last thing I am. I created this blog to be about Creating Motherhood and right now that is not happening.
I have watched as other blog writers morphed from trying to conceive to being pregnant to being parents. It has been a beautiful and amazing thing to witness. But then I feel like these blogs are now something that I am not really supposed to read. I don’t know how to respond to posts asking for breastfeeding advice or what to say about crying it out or how to console someone who is going in for a ___ week ultrasound. I don’t know how to participate in conversations about the gender of a child or birth plans. And I imagine that people that have moved on have no idea what to say to me and my retroactive posts.
I feel defective. The broken blog written by the broken woman.
And like I said- I get it. Who the fuck would want to take time out of their day to read whiny and obnoxious musings that are basically a broken record? There just is no longer a purpose.
April will mark an anniversary for me. Three years of banging my head against the wall trying to make a dream happen. Three years of doctors, treatments, surgeries, procedures, traveling, crying, saving, sacrificing, friend losing, depression, body hating, jealousy, rage, fallings out with God, and the loss of self.
And yes, I totally wonder why me. Why aren’t I enough to make a family? Why can’t I be satisfied with failure and defeat? Why am I not blessed with an income or a savings account or a job with kick ass insurance? Why am I single? Why am I alone? Am I not good enough? Is this the “meant to be” outcome everyone talks about? Is the closest thing to parenting I will ever know be the 5+ years I have spent taking care of Grandmother?
See? pathetic.
I tried to go the entire month of March not talking about procreation. I made it 30 days. Clearly I am obsessed.
I am going to be taking a little blog break. I am sure you guessed that so no need to act surprised. It’s been coming. I was hoping that tapering off the baby talk would help me find a new focus, but it isn’t just the writing. It’s also knowing that virtually everyone that started reading my blog has graduated into a club that clearly doesn’t want me as a member. It’s scanning my blogroll and seeing all the success and all of the people still trying. It’s the feeling of failure…daily, hourly.
And I know that makes me a horrible and lame person- but maybe you can just see me as human. I am not strong enough to cheer anyone on right now. I am far from it. I do genuinely wish people happy endings, but right now, right in this moment of my life, it is too hard to go there. And I just hate that about myself. Seriously hate it.
I think I will get better as time has a chance to heal me. I really do. I am too lonely to stay with my head in the sand for too long. Too nosy to not check in on how everyone is doing. In 1-2 years I should be able to afford to go back to the NEC and try an FET. Once I get closer to that I will be less of a mess. Of course I am still scrambling to figure out to make that happen sooner- have you ever seen me not scramble? But after years of thinking outside of the box and trying to pull plans out of my ass I am frankly exhausted and resentful.
Thanks to all of you that have stuck by me since April of 2005. And thanks to all of the people that have found me along the way. It’s been good. I will post again when there is something more on topic to write about.
I am tired, Beloved,
of chafing my heart against
the want of you;
of squeezing it into little inkdrops,
And posting it.
~Amy Lowell, “The Letter”
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I’m so sorry. I really am. I’ll miss your humor, wit and honesty. Good luck.
I’m so sorry Cali. I totally understand the need for a break, but I still want to hear what you have to say when you’re ready to write again. I enjoy your writing no matter what you’re writing about, and I hope that somehow you’ll be able to write about your intended subject sooner than we all anticipated. Post something every now and then just to let us know that you’re OK, eh?
Well, I for one never thought your blog got dull because I love your writing. But I understand the need for a break. I hope you’ll be back soon!
Much love.
Beings that I haven’t been reading your blog for too terribly long, I’m sad to see you take a break “so soon”. But that’s just me being selfish, and I totally understand the need for you to do so. I hope you’re able to find some peace in all of this and I hope you’ll be back soon. xoxo
None of that makes you horrible or lame.
And I totally understand the need for a break, but (even as a newbie out here), I love reading your posts, whatever they’re about. You just have a way with words, and a personality that shines through.
I hope you can find a place inside you where you can be happy. *hugs*
oh cali, this journey just sucks the life right out of you. you are not lame for any of this, and no one should feel “satisfied” with failure. it’s only natural to feel defeated right now. I will miss your stories and wit, but I hope a break gives you some needed space to try and re-discover yourself again. all the best to you. ~luna
How will we know how your skin fared on the new treatment?
Oh Cali, I am sad and feeling a little selfish myself at the thought of not being able to read your blog, you have a sucha way with words and you could write about a pile of dirt and I think it would be interesting…but I understand. I hope you find peace and find a new you in the process a you that you never knew existed…because you are a great person!!
Cali, I will really miss hearing from you. I’m interested in you as a person, not you as a baby-bearing machine. I understand the feelings surrounding the infertility, having been there-done that, and you will heal in time. Know that you’re loved and will be missed until you decide to return. (((((hugs)))))
no need to be on topic. your voice is loving and powerful, and i’m thankful you’ve shared it. but likewise, there’s no need to share it if you don’t want to or can’t. no need to muster up cheer when it’s hard to find. i hope that the universe gives you some much deserved breaks, and hope that you find a lot more happiness than you’ve had these past few months. even if you’re not blogging, you’ll be in my thoughts, and i’m certain you’ll be many other people’s thoughts as well.
No need for apologies. This is your blog, and you can write about whatever you damned well please…if you damned well please. I look forward to hearing from you, each day, even if I’m not posting.
I understand. I started blogging with the intent of creating a family. I continued to blog with the intent of discussing foster care. Right now, we’re not even doing that.
*hug* to you.
cali, so so sorry to see you go, but totally understand. i hope that the break brings you some clarity in this crazy journey of life, as well as healing and hope. know that you will be thought of and i will not be unsubscribing as i wait for your bloggy return. i also enjoy reading about whatever you tackle in your posts, be it baby making, gma caretaking, or trips to the dermatologist. be well!
Cali, very selfishly, I don’t want you to stop blogging. I LOVE your blog, I LOVE you - but I do understand your need for a break.
I sincerely hope it’s not a long one.
All my love.
Good for you for knowing what you need and making it happen. I hope this break treats you well, and know that you have a lot of people who will welcome you back with open arms when you are ready. Be well!
Cali, I am so very sorry that things have been so hard for you. It is not fair, not even a little bit, that life has decided to hand you a crap sandwich. I will continue to check back on you when/if you decide to grace the blogosphere with your words.
This may sound silly or trite, but while you may not have conceived and birthed a baby, you helped to conceive and birth an online revolution of support and information and love. It has not been without its ups and downs, and it may not mean much right now in the midst of such great hurt, but you are the keystone of the IVP and without you, it simply wouldn’t be what it is.
Thank you for everything. Peace, light, and love to you always.
Cali, I wish you well. In all ways. I’ve only been following the TTC blogs for six months or so, and I’ve only had my own for about 2 months. But I’ve already had to stop reading some of the success ones, because it was too stressful or painful or something. So I completely understand that you would need to. And when I’ve gone away for a few days, and not checked in on the blogs and the loss, it has been at times a relief. So I can see why you’d need to. I’ll miss you. I have benefited from reading about your relationship with your grandmother and about what it means to be a fulltime caretaker and what Alzheimer’s can do. You are sensitive and generous, and I like your voice. I’m sorry you need a break, but I hope it will help restore your spirit. Maybe, if it’s not too much pressure, you can post a little bit just every now and then to let us know you’re ok … Sending love.
I would read your blog if you wrote about aluminum-clad nitrogen de-combustion filters. I don’t know if such things exist, but if you wrote about them, dammit, I’d read every word and come back for more.
You’re an amazing writer and by far the coolest blogger out there. I read a variety of blogs that have absolutely nothing to do with my life and interests. I read them because something honest and beautiful about the blogger appeals to me. Your decision to take a break from blogging for awhile (yeah, right, we all know what THAT means, we’re not stupid!) will make my blog-sistence a little sadder. I’m always going to wonder what Cali is up to, whether you ever got that pedicure and how the complexion battle is faring.
I don’t read your blog to keep abreast of your procreative activities. Sure it’s interesting, but it’s not the only thing that’s interesting about you. I sit up here in New Jersey, editing textbooks and taking care of my standard poodle and my husband and our son, who for some crazy reason is a college freshman when it seems like we just brought him home from the hospital a couple of years ago) and I’m trying to come to terms with being 50 frigging years old but through your blog I feel as if I have a connection (albeit a one-way-connection) to a young woman in Florida who is more honest and self-aware than I would ever dare to be. I’ll miss you very much.
Cali, the fact that you have devoted three years of yourself to supporting all of us in the IVP through their successes and failures, the fact that you have been able to give love and happiness, genuinely, to so many others while you were so continually disappointed yourself, is nothing short of miraculous. I have always been in awe of it. Go do what is best for you and in the meantime hundreds of us will send hugs and love from afar. You are more than the total of your ttc bits and broken pieces. Way more. And this isn’t the end of the road for you. sending love!
As you are well aware I never ever read your blog because of the fertility issues, I read you almost daily, because it helped me feel closer to someone I love very dearly. Perhaps taking this break is the best way to be able to shake off the shit and rise again. (Oh my gawd I just referenced our freaking high school!!! bwwaaahhahha!!!) Know that I will miss reading you every day and perhaps it will inspire me to get off my lazy ass and write more. I love you so so much and this made me cry, but I can understand your why’s and just maybe I can understand the desire to not share so deeply of yourself day after day. Please keep in touch with me and be looking for something to arrive in your (home) mailbox later this week! Smooch!
Your blog is not dull at all, but I understand the need for a break. We will miss you.
I’ve only recently started reading your blog, but I will stay subscribed in the hopes that you’ll update at some time in the future. I will miss reading your posts.
I understand.
But I will miss you, very much so.
Good Luck to you, and remember:
“One day at a time–this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”
Hugs to you from across the ocean.
Please, please come back when you can.
You will be so, so missed.
Cali, you’re NOT alone. I know it feels like everyone else has babies and has moved on, but some of us *hint, hint* are still in the same place with you. It sucks, believe me I know. If you EVER need someone to talk to, you can email me.
If you write, I’m going to be here reading, no matter what you’re writing about.
I’ll be thinking of you, Cali.
Be well.
In three years you birthed this beautiful resources called the ivp… i know so many of us depend on this network to get us through the really really bad days. Good luck with your journey and your break. Spring is the time of renewal and green, and flowers - so enjoy the world as best as you can and we will all be here when you come back.
Oh jeesh. I’ve never thought of you of dull, or horrible, or lame, just for the record. And also for the record, I visit your blog because I’m interested in you and your writing is fab. But none of that matters really because it’s YOUR blog and you should only write what YOU want, if and when you want to. So I hope your break is fruitful. We’ll be there when you come back xxxx
I’ll miss you while you’re away.
And your blog has never been dull or boring.
Take your time and let us know when you’re back from your break.
I’m sorry you feel so bad and certainly understand your position. I think your writing is amazing and like the others would read about anything. I will see my brother in 2 weeks and he has made me a copy of the CD I promised you so I will email you when I get it for your mailing address. I hope to read more from you in the meantime, but if not, please take care of yourself…
Oh, C. I love you. I have felt your strain lately…the not talking about TTC. Of course you have permission, on your blog, to take a break, and CERTAINLY to stop reading about other people’s pregnancies and newborns…but I always think, in some way, you have never understood why people read your blog. Or course part of it is because you are witty and a good writer, of course the topic of interest is you creating a family. But I think people read because sometimes you are authentic and raw and you tell the truth, about your experience, your body, your relentless hope and what is messy and ugly. And I say this not to convince you to keep at a blog which is making you feel more alone (god knows i would need a break too) but to let you know that I read because I love the posts where you are yourself. I’ll be here when you come back, in a week, a month, whenever. xoxo.
I was about to put my arms around you and give you a hug (and I will do that after I shake you a bit), but you need a stern talking to as well, Missy. We love you. We don’t click on your blog because we need to know about what is happening with your hoohaahooterus. We click on your blog because you are an important part of this community and we care about how you are and what you’re thinking. And frankly, some of my favourite stories are the ones about your past and the ones about your grandmum.
I think you are beautiful and smart and funny and have an enormous heart. And that all comes through in the writing and photographs.
Okay, now here is your hug. Take your break, collect yourself, come back when you’re ready.
I hear you and I understand everything you’re saying. I can relate to every bit of it. And you’re right: when something that should be a joy and a release becomes a burden that just adds to the feelings of failure, it’s time to step away for a while.
For the record, your blog has never been dull (I suspect the unsubscribers unsubscribed simply because of the TTC hiatus and nothing more). You are a gifted, beautiful writer and your raw honesty is profound.
I hope you’ll feel free to check in periodically just because this is Your Blog, Dammit, And You Feel Like It. I hope you’ll focus on all those things you have control over and that those parts of your life are enriched. I hope this break relieves some of the pressure to perform that we all feel. I wish you peace and serenity. xo
i think it’s great that you are doing what you need to take care of yourself. coming from another broken woman who uses your blog as a serious crutch - i am really going to miss your blog. i keep waiting for the post about your book deal. you have serious talent. you and your family have a very moving story to tell. thank you for sharing it with me.
I will miss your blog, but I understand that you need to take care of yourself and give yourself a break. You have a lot of readers who will be here whenever you decide to come back. Till then, I’ll be sending you my best wishes for peace and happiness.
Keep writing! Love you and will miss you.
So sorry to hear this, but I completely understand your need to circle the wagons. As you work through this, please consider that although it may not have been meant to happen in this way, or at this time, that doesn’t mean it isn’t meant to happen at all. Life has a way of catching us off guard and surprising us when we least expect it. Retrospectively, we can see this is true, and the same truth applies to the future. And you, my dear, have a joyous future ahead of you. You just took the scenic route.
I hope you let us know how you’re doing from time to time, and perhaps even return if you feel it’s the right thing for you. You were my first internet friend, and I wish you all the best in whatever life brings you.
You have my email; stay in touch. xoxo
I will miss your blog, but I support you doing whatever you feel is best for you. Thinking of you.
I will miss your blog!! Now, you will have to call me or email me so I know how/ what you are doing. I can understand, tho, that you need a break. Man-Annie made me think of the Phoenix Nest in the cafeteria. Remember? If only we could go in there and pow-wow again…. Did I really just say pow-wow? Love you!
Thank you posting my post. I feel that I have to finish what I promised to post about for the two people left reading and then I am soooo done. Take care of you and know that I love you and I know where you’re at because I am in the same place
I’m so sorry that the damn admissions staff of the fucking club is so damn cruel.
Love you, and I so get the need to take a break.
still love you, however.
xo
I guess this means I need to email you more, since I can’t join the fucking club either.
Do what you need to do, babe.
love, love, love and more love
hey lady. we started out in the same club and for all i know we are still in the same club.
Like everyone else I understand the need for a break. And like everyone else has said, we love you for your brutal honesty, ability to look right to the heart of the matter and the courage you have to deal with the really ugly stuff. And none of that has anything to do with your vajayjay.
While I’m sorry to see you go I’m hoping you’ll be back at some time, regardless of where your journey takes you.
Cali,
Reading your posts has helped me to feel a little connection to someone in the infertility world (as I have no one in my real life to talk to really about everything my husband and I have gone through). Whether your posts were about fertility stuff, GM, your beautiful photos, sweet tea recipes or just everyday going-ons, they often helped me to get through some of my days. I will miss your posts so much and hope that you do whatever you need to in order to make yourself as strong as possible. But, know that I’m sure there are many people out there, like me, who pull strength from you and your words, regardless of what they are about, but just because you wrote them.
Amy pretty much wrote my response for me.
I will miss your posts - I feel as if you can articulate so well the pain of infertility. You are raw, you are true, you are no holds barred. If someone who had never experienced infertility stumbled across your blog, by the time they left they would be aching almost as if they had been infertile themselves.
Go buy a bottle or two of Red, rent some movies, grab your animals and GM, pile onto your couch and veg. We’ll still be here when you get back.
Lurker here, and one of your newer blog-fans. Just letting you know I’ll be here when you decide to write again, too… LOVE your writing style and your photography. Take care of yourself.
I will miss your updates very much…
Hope you come back soon!!
XXOO
I love you. I’ll miss you. I’ll still be waiting here when you get back.
Totally understand all of your reasons for wanting a break. This should be your safe space, not a place that makes you feel burdened with having to please or be on topic. We all love you enough to give you the gift of a reprieve without us clamoring all over you for more, when more is the last thing you have to give right now. As a lurker and now poster, I look around at what you’ve created on the web and just shake my head at the awesomeness of it all. We take time to read your words *especially* when they’re down, not “in spite” of it. But I know our presence doesn’t take away the horrendous pain, and if you just want to be without feeling like you have to perform, we’ll take a step back and let you breathe. In the meantime, know that in this moment of needing space, you’re still not alone. We’ll be here when you get back and ready to listen to whatever you want to share, whenever. much love in the days to come, and if you want to share crazy YouTube videos at any point, send ‘em my way, PLEASE! xo
cali, i have read your post here twice…and everyone’s comments, and all i keep wishing is to be outside your door and knock and have you answer and just give you a huuuuuge hug and tell you how much i love you.
do what you need to do, but also know that like so many others have said, we read your blog because it is YOU. you will never be far from our hearts, dont ever forget that ok?
love you so much sweetie…
xo,
gypsy
I’ll be thinking about you during your break.
You are a talented blogger and photographer. I will miss your blog while you take a break. Like a previous commentater, I read a variety of blogs that I find interesting. I’m not in the IF community, but your blog is compelling and insightful and well written. For what it’s worth, you are young and you have so much time to start your family. Maybe if you concentrate on other areas of your life for now - career, friends, hobbies, travel, etc., etc., - having children will fall into place in the future. What about pursuing a career in web design/internet sites/writing, etc.? You could get paid (and get health insurance) for doing what you love to do anyway!
I am so sad that you won’t be writing for a while. I look forward to your writings but understand your need to stop. Your writing about your grandmother really touches me. I, like your other readers, don’t think you are dull or boring in the least. But I hope you find peace and happiness. good luck!
I’ve been lurking only for the last month or so, and I too have enjoyed your writing style, and photography. Wishing you only the best and very much looking forward to your returning when the time is right for you.
Best Regards!
I too will miss your blog but I also understand. This is all such a depressing and rough journey that we all need a break sometimes. Hopefully you will have the means soon to do your FET and that soon you will be joining the others who have made it through. Hugs to you.
I have enjoyed reading in part because you are NOT asking for breastfeeding advice
In fact, I read about a dozen TTC blogs daily and save yours for last because it is unique and interesting to me. Good luck along the way wherever you go and whatever you do…
Of course you should do what is best for you right now. But I can only echo everyone else in saying that I read you because I love you, your writing, and your photography, whatever you are writing/photographing about. I will be checking in often. And thinking of you always.
oh cali… i’m so sad. i love reading your blog, no matter what you write. but i completely understand your position. it’s such a lonely place when everyone you know is passing you by and you are the last one standing. believe me i know. i’m there too. it’s awful and you don’t know what to do, where to turn, who to talk to, how to make it out of bed for one more day. just promise us that if you need to blog, you just will. you don’t need to make any promises, like not talking about ttc for a month, or going away for awhile. if that’s what you want, do it. but if you need us, we are here no matter what form your blog takes! i’ve really grown to love you over the past couple of years. i know that sounds strange from someone who has never met you. but you are a special person and have become a wonderful support for me as well. please keep in touch, and i just may hunt you down! xoxoxo
I’m selfish and don’t like this at all. Blog title name be damned. I read this blog because of you and whatever journey you were going through, from caretaker to TTC to your pictures and photography to your TV reviews to your gym adventures…your life. Not just one segment.
I understand where you are coming from, but I am not happy about this.
PLEASE don’t isolate.
The rest of my thoughts are being composed in an email. Look for it tomorrow.
Just want to say how much I will miss reading your blog. No matter your topic, you kept me coming back for more… Take care of yourself, and come back when you can.
I’m here, via blog or email or phone # (cuz I’m pretty sure I sent you both when last you were in New England, though I won’t be at the landline for another two weeks or so) or heck, Pony Express!
And yes, I know where you’re coming from. I remember. It sucks and it hurts and it’s a world of pain we never knew existed before.
Personally, I don’t care if you decided to post your local Yellow Pages - I’m still here, still reading. I might not post in the comments, but I am here.
Love ya.
Oro
Oh, if you decide to, y’know, take a loooooooooong break, will you let Sarah know what’s going on so she can tell us in her blog?
Oro, all into volunteering other people
I don’t know what to say but I am sorry that you are feeling lousy. I for one enjoy reading your blog (even if I don’t comment like I should) and you will be missed. I hope that your break is a temporary one. Here’s a big virtual hug (and margarita, those always help too)
Dude, you could write shopping lists and I’d still read. I’ve been in the thick of a bathroom remodel and haven’t been around.
I guess all I need to say is this: I love you and I’ll miss reading you and I hope that you find peace. Please, please keep in touch with me, even if it’s through email (you don’t have to read my blog).
Love, Cali, lots of love.
I read your blog more than I even write in mine. I understand the need for a break, but I’ll continue to check in and I hope from time to time you’ll let us know how you are…not just you but also your Grandmother. You could write a book just about being a granddaughter! I’m still a member of the “have not conceived” club and your membership has NOT been revoked! I love you! You have my email..keep in touch.
I don’t know you that well, b/c I have only been reading your blog for a short time, but I will miss you. I don’t care what you write about…I will be here to read when you are ready to write. I hear your pain, and I am sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts.
I’m so sorry things are so tough for you right now. I love checking in on you and your GM stories have really touched my heart. In fact you and your GM have inspired me to reach out and make more of an effort to spend time with my own GM. I will miss you while you’re taking your break and will continue to think good thoughts and wish you peace.
I have only recently found your blog and have throughly enjoyed your mundane posts…LOL I love your GM stories as I was extremely close to mine and she passed away just 4 years ago. I am battling age related secondary infertility in a 2nd marriage, it sucks, but in reality I know I’m blessed. But 2 years into this and it does feels like I am banging my head on the proverbial wall. Money is in short supply and time passes me by…I’ll be 41 on Friday and my eggs are getting crusty.
I also have battled depression and can vouch that infertility can make depression rear its ugly head.
I am rooting for your success, from your blogs I can feel the ache in your heart. I wish you peace on this journey.
Kerry
Please tell me this is an April Fool’s joke. No Calliope? I understand… and I want what you want, always have, but a year’s hiatus seems too much. <– that’s me, being selfish. I love you. XOXO
I will echo what so many others have said: I read your blog to read about you, your experiences, your perspectives, and I could care less about the topic. You’re a fantastic writer and photographer, but more than that you’re a very special soul whom many of us sincerely care about, despite that minor little detail that we don’t “know” you. I will sorely miss your writing, stories, and insights, but I also understand your need for a break: your blog should be a place of respite, not a place to cause you more anguish. When it becomes too painful, a break is certainly in order.
So while I hate to see you stop writing, and while I selfishly wish you would just keep writing through it, I honor your decision to take some time off. I will eagerly await any updates or new posts.
Take care, Calliope. xoxo
As much as I have just recently found you, for selfish reasons I am finding myself hoping that you will reconsider. BUT that being said, I too understand the need for distance and taking a break. I will keep on checking in, hoping to read more.
Take care of yourself Cali! I’ll miss your “dull & boring” blog immensely.
Good Luck !
I wish you the best. I think most of all I wish you peace. I am so sorry your journey has not brought to where you wanted to be.
I just wanted to let you know that cheered and cried along the way with you. You have given me more to think about than almost any other blogger I have followed. Through your story I have questioned my moral view on intentionally single parents…on investing in “creating” a child when you don’t have a traditional job…on the whole IVF process in general.
You have opened my eyes and taught me to less rigid on what I think is right and wrong - black and white. You have shown me that sometimes in life we all have to take a chance to go for what we want, even if it is not the easiest route. As cliche as it sounds, I think “knowing” you has made me a more compassionate person.
I will miss you.
I admit that I haven’t been here since the very beginning, and it’s only within the past 6 months or so have I crawled out from my hole to comment. However, I’ll echo the statements of others and say that you are one of my favourite bloggers, and I’m certainly not just saying that. Why else would I have taken the chance of really creeping you out with my coffee comment?
I’ll miss you terribly, but I understand your reasons for going silent for awhile. I hope that when you come back you’re in a better place emotionally. I’ll anxiously be awaiting your feed to pop up in my Bloglines again.
I’m just echoing what everyone else has said, but I’d like to say it again. I’m fairly new to this blog, but I am going to miss you as well. I understand why you need a break, and I hope that it’s healing for you.
Me too. What everyone else says. Breaks are good emotionally, but I will miss you. Taking care of yourself is the most important thing.
I will miss reading your thoughts, and even though I haven’t been here very long, I have enjoyed being a part of your journey. i hope you find peace in your break.
I understand.
I will miss you.
You will be sorely missed.
I wish you all the best
I hear you completely, although I’ve always found you enjoyable to read, and will miss you terribly. Come back when you can.
Much love.
I have been reading for a while and I will miss hearing what you have to say about anything and everything, but I do understand the desire to step back for a while. That makes sense to me and I know that I (and many, many other people) will be waiting to hear from you when you “come back.”
I’m still reading and wanting to read more. I respect you need for respite, but I also urge you to recognize this passage as part of the process. I admire your strength and honesty and I don’t need posts about tww and bloodwork to stay with you as you get closer each day to becoming a mother. It’s just where you’re at today and that’s more than alright. You shouldn’t feel an obligation to be somewhere else. xo
Hope it is a good rest.
Salome said everything I wanted to.
Very selfishly, I hope you come back sooner than later, but I do hope your rest is beneficial…
P.S. What does Sue think about this?