The phone rang around 7pm last night from an unfamiliar number. GM was asleep and Mother was still at work and I was way too into watching Extra to deal with all of the political calls that had been coming in. (anyone else on speed dial for both political parties? It is annoying as hell) So I lazily answered the phone, all prepared to tell the person on the other end of the line to not ever call us again. The caller began with, “Mrs. _____?” First sign of an annoying phone call is when the caller can not pronounce your last name.
I cheekily replied, “Sorry, no one here by THAT name.”
The caller then used my first name. Oh. Um. Yes. That would be me. Then he apologized for not saying who he was. “Sorry to be bothering you so late, this is Dr. [Liver].”
BOING. He now had my attention. Instinctively I reached across the couch to the table where the box of anti-viral tissues perched. If a doctor is calling you at home, after the evening news, it is clearly going to be bad. Bad, bad, bad.
Here is what Dr. Liver had to say to me (& no, I am not making his line up), “I have good news and I have bad news. The good news is that you do not have Hep C, the bad news is that you will no longer be my patient.”
Ok, let’s bypass the cheesy delivery of his news and just go right for the meat of it: I DO NOT HAVE HEP C!!!!!
Dr. Liver explained that either I was a rare, rare, rare case of someone getting Hep C and then getting “over it like the flu” (not really possible) OR that I never had it in the first place. I have zero virus in my blood. None. Nada. Zip.
I got off the phone with him and immediately called Mom, who was on her way home. She screamed and I (as quietly as I could) screamed back and then we both started crying.
And I cried so much, I am still crying. It is a mess of crying. I am full of so many emotions: rage over a canceled cycle, sadness for the almost recipient, elation over not being sick, pissed off that I have to go through meds again, scared that I won’t respond at all, nervous that something else will find a way to get fucked up.
I haven’t even called the clinic yet. I was going to e-mail them, but I think with news like this I should deliver it over the phone. And so what if I cry, right? It was a shitty thing that happened. And an even scarier one to have to spend so much time on. And I find it horrific that this is the week that I most likely would have had my beta. I can get really chocked up on the “what might have been”.
But for now I am going to try and be optimistic. I get knocked down but I get up again.
I can never thank you all enough for being here for me as I go through all of this. Don’t ever doubt that leaving a person a comment or e-mail helps. It does. BIG TIME. Just knowing that all of you guys, and then all of your readers, were supporting me and offering advice and assistance- it was very healing. Thank you, thank you.
Time to get ready for the IVP’s IVF! 
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Holy Freakin’ AWESOME!!!!!
I knew it!!!! I am sooo happy for you!!! I am yelling at my screen!
WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!! [dancing] YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! [dancing some more]
IVF Here come Cali!!!
many happy hugs to you!
Brilliant! Absolutely wonderful news. Seriously made my day hearing this – well reading it
Now hurry up on that IVF thing already – I have tons of baby clothes waiting to be shipped to you!!!
Woohoo! That is the best news. I’m sorry this has been such an emotional rollercoaster…but thank goodness the coaster came to a stop at the right place. I can’t wait to cheer from the sidelines when the IVP IVF begins!
oh how wonderful! i’m thrilled. i’m so sorry that you had to go through such a scare and such disappointment. you know we’ll all be rooting for you as the IVF stuff moves forward. re: your doc–the bad news is that you won’t be my patient anymore?! good grief! to say that after the good news was delivered is one thing, but that presentation sure could’ve used work!
Hooooooooooooooooooooooooooray!!!! Shame you had to go through all that crap, but I am SO GLAD you got the all clear. Now onwards and upwards, girl! xxxx
yay!!!! so glad to know that good things DO happen to good people. Will be staying tune and eagerly awaiting your BFP!!!
YAY!!!!!!
I had no real expectation of there being a result in yet, but had to come and check. Christ. I am so happy for you, and yet, so frustrating that you’ve been through all this crap.
wow – i was just checking for the “how many days until we hear” and to see what today’s discussion topic was ~ i totally enjoyed the Tuesday Tarot Card Reading
WOOHOOOOO!!! *happy dancing* with you… this was a lovely lovely early surprise ~~~ and now, getting all the hope reigned in for the IVP’s IVF!!!
~aint no stopping you now….~
BRING IT ON, BABY!!!!!!!
Wow, what an incredible roller coaster ride. It just sucks that you have been through all of this, but I am happy about the news. I hope that everything works out for you and that your dreams come true.
Wooohooo! Congrats! Come on IVF!
Superb! I’m so pleased that you can leave this shitty mess behind you and start with IVF. So sorry you (and the recipient) went through such a heartbreaking experience though.
Hot damn, woman!! That’s fantastic news, so great, I nearly choked on my breakfast. Congrats!
Whoo-hooo!!! I am so happy for you!
I know everything happens for a reason, but I will never understand why you got a false positive for Hep C right before IVF. Hope someday the answer will become clear to you and you will share with the rest of us.
Now onward and upward!
Hot diggity damn!!!! What fan-fucking-tastic news! I can understand the lure of dwelling on the what-could-have-beens, but it sounds like you’re working hard at looking to the future. Wield this new hope like a sword, baby!
Sending lots of Snoopy Happy Dances your way! xoxo.
This is such fantastic news! You must be over the moon, woman. I am so delighted to hear this, and even more happy that you’re going to get to go ahead with the IVP IVF. While I understand the reflection on what could have been, you can only indulge in that for a moment because you’re on the other side of this now, and you get to proceed with your baby dreams. I am so happy for you.
WONDERFUL!
This is the best news I’ve heard in a long time!! YAY!!
WWWWWWAAAAAHHHHHOOOOOO!!!! Yay! That is so awesome!
HOORAY! I toast to your health and the IVP IVF’s success with my bottle of Vitamin Water! Let’s get this show on the road!
OMG Cali this is amazing! I knew there was NO EFFING WAY you had Hep C.
Onward!
YAY!!! Am doing the desk chair dance of joy for you, my dear.
Well this is awesome Cali! Like others said… I am so sorry you had to go through all of this… but I guess it builds more character if nothing else…. Yeah for IVF!!!
This is the awesomest news ever!!!! How sweet sweet sweet the good news is after the storm. What a freakin’ terrible ride to have been on, but this is YOUR STOP and the conductor is yelling at you to get off and get to your destination!! Couldn’t have been better news on this Wednesday morning. CONGRATS and looking forward to the call to the clinic (cry away! everyone LOVES happy tears!) and hearing of the next steps. huzzah hurrah yah!
Yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So incredibly thrilled for you. But also totally pissed that you had to go through all this for nothing. Can’t wait for all the IVP IVF deets!
WOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fanfreakintastic!!!!! I’m so happy for you, I’m crying like a fool. Oh girl you so deserve some good news.
Darn ; there’s now many of my coworkers wondering why I’m cheering and doing the happy dance !!
How soon can you start again ? I smell a christmas present…
YAHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am in tears here for you!! I’m so so glad for you!! Sucks that you had to go through this whole experience. That pisses me off. But you don’t have it!!! Hurray!! On to IVF!! I’m so happy for you!
hurray!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How frickin amazingly awesome is that?!?! I am so happy for you! Bring on the IVF!
I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so happy for you Cali!
Now I just hope to be IVF cycle buds and belly buds after!!!!!!!!!!
Awesome. I am so happy for you. Good luck with what is to come.
That’s great news!
Thank god, thank god, thank god!
I don’t blame you one bit for being frustrated and angry and crying and everything else, but holy moly, it would have been so much worse if it weren’t just a astonishingly effective immune system.
YAY!! That’s awesome!
First, I am so relieved for you for health reasons. Of course that was my first concern. And secondly, I am so incredibly happy for you that you get to have an IVF cycle! And you know you respond well! Can’t wait for it all to begin, again. xoxoxoxo
That is absoeffinlutely FANTASTIC!!!!! Words on the screen cannot express how completely over the moon I am for you right now! WHOOOOOOOOOOP!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I cracked the shit UP at the link.
Let the IVP’s IVF commence!
WOOT!
That is GREAT news!!!
That is GREAT NEWS!!!!!!! Stay positive, it’s all going to happen for you.
OMFGWTFMFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!
I have to go cry now.
Wait, does this mean you’re a scientific oddity?? Can you get money if they study you? Does that suggestion sound bad???
What scrumptious news. You may have been temporarily knocked down, but now it is time to get knocked up! Woooohooo!
I swear this is the last thing I’m going to say – this is totally the Universe’s doing. I don’t know why, but I think obstacles have been cleared for you.
OMG! I am so happy (but your title and lead in paragraphs had me scared!!!). IVP IVF here you come!
Ahhhhhhh. Sweet fricking relief. And boiling, seething rage that you had to go through this. They better fucking make you a baby now.
Hip hip hooray! I’m sure this will be on the top of your list of things to be thankful for at next week’s Thanksgiving Dinner! AND you can even have a glass of wine or two! Or five.
Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I’m so freaking excited for you. Yeah, pissed that it all happened, but you are HEALTHY! Awesome!
Hells yeah!
all i want to say is that i really like that little dancing guy. are you dancing like that? i hope so!
Congratulations!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!
Congrats on the healthy results! I’ve been following along silently for awhile and shall continue to do so as you take the next steps. Also, I found this recipe today and thought it might interest you, in light of your recent kitchen trials.
OhmyGod, OhmyGod, OhmyGod!
Yayayayayay! Congrats!!!
*snoopy dance* Yesssssss!!!! I am so excited for you.
That is fantastic. Good luck on the upcoming IVF.
Fantastic news!!! I’m so happy for you.
Bring on the IVF!!!!!!!!
That is wonderful news….Reading that post brought tears of happiness to my eyes. Good Luck on your IVF!!!
(I don’t normally post I am actually a lurker who found you right when all this started and I have been following and cheering you on.)
WooHOO!!!!
Okay, first and foremost, I am so relieved for you. In the background, I am angry as all get-out and raging at the events that led up to the relief. Being healthy is the most important. But it’s all very bittersweet. I’m sorry you had to go through that.
That doctor is a goofball! How funny…
WHOO HOOO! i love your dancing man–that is exactly what i felt like doing when i read your news!!!!!
Holy celebration in order!
Cali it’s horribly unfair you had to go through all of this and I am so so so happy for you that it has all been resolved and that you no longer have this threat to your health hanging over you. Bring on the IVF!!! If anyone deserves good things it’s you.
omg, this is the best damn news. SO SO SO happy that you’re healthy. And I can’t imagine what a slap in the face it must be that this false positive screwed everything up, but I can’t help expressing my utter excitement over what lies ahead.
I have been lurking and reading and crying with you for days, no weeks. I had to come on out and say congratulations on the great news, and I hope that the good news continues to roll in and your
IVF is successful.
I’m so happy that you’re healthy. What wonderful news after such an awful scare! Best wishes as you move ahead with IVF.
thank god! this news made my day. i’m so very happy for you!
and just think how well you responed the 1st time, i’m sure you’ll do even better this time around. and you get to keep all your eggs!
it’s ON.
holy fucking shit!!!! Time to kick it hard core with the IVF, babe, it’s your turn.
HOTDAMN HOTDAMN HOTDAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just read this! woo hoo!!!
ROCK ON! Baby here you come! I am so thrilled for you!!!
Yayay!!! I’m so happy for you!
That is wonderful…good luck with everything.
HOOOOOORAY! I’m only just now getting to read this, and it’s the perfect news to end a nutty day. It’s IVF time!
What awesome news! I am thrilled for you!
That is absolutely bloomin’ marvelous news!
I just wish it hadn’t screwed up your cycle,
J
Wonderful…I can’t wait to hear about the upcoming cycle…how soon will the doc send them proof so you can move it along?
That’s fantastic!
I’m so glad!!! The Universe did something right….now she just needs to give you that baby you deserve. I’m glad you didn’t refund the money!!!
What wonderful news! I’m so happy for you!
Wonderful news! I’m very happy for you
WOOWOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cali!!! Im so happy for you!!! Oh my god, that is such amazing news!!! I knew it would work out for you lady!! Now get back to those meds and lets make a baby!!
woo HOOOOOO! i’m so glad. and so pissed off that you had to go through this. but mostly glad.
This is just the BEST news… NOW, you’re on the road, my friend!!!
here’s to your health!!!!
This is the best news EVAH! And it means you’ll be in our neck of the woods again sooner rather than later! I am so so very happy for you
oh gosh was an awesome call. thank goodness. what a psycho rollercoaster you were on.
geesh.
come join me and my needles! *grin*
rae
FUCK YEAH!! So damn happy for you and bring on the IVF!
This is the best news I’ve heard all week. Hip Hip Hooray!
Now back to our regularly scheduled madness, shall we?
I second Cat — “Hip, hip, hooooray!”
Geeze, immerse yourself in studying for a licencing exam, and you miss all the good stuff! WHOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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